I wrote this to help someone but she look like she doesn't need my help.

Masa study i think about suicide alot, tapi fikir tak nak mak sedih, tak nak family sedih, kalau aku mati sakit aku tak hilang, dia beralih kat orang lain. Self harm is a big no sebab yang rasa sakit tu kau. Yang menanggung semua rasa tu kau then it's not worth it babe. I didn't wore jumper but i do wear sweatshirt and sweater and baggy shirt alot. Yup, to hide my figure. At the end i figure out that that is my style. The thing that bring comfort to me. The outfit that bring my confident out. Love it then you're gonna love yourself more. Find outfit and style that you love the most. Stop thinking what other ppl gonna think. Make that outfit look comfortable in their eye. Kita buat dia bukan dia buat kita. I do hates my body. Im 156 tall with weight 74. Im extra size. Tryna force myself to love my body is hard as hell. But i do have skinny legs. So i wear skinny jeans alot. The point is, kau cari one part of the your body that you love the most. Admire it and get drown in it. Take care of it and focused on it. Later you're gonna start to love other parts too🤗. I still cry myself to sleep every night. Still can't get over it. But that's life. Kalau happy sentiasa sumpah bosan. Find something that make u feel in peace. As for me aku dengar bunyi hujan kilat. So bila kau dengar benda kau suka n benda tu buat kau tenang dia jadi macam terapi minda tau. We all gonna get judge by everyone. Tapi weyh nak puaskan hati semua orang memang tak mampu. Make yourself as priority. Peduli kan lah apa orang nak kata. Bukan kau kacau dia pun. Mindset nie paling susah but once kau tak ambil kisah, sumpah tenang gila hidup kau. Let ppls badmouthing u tapi tapi TAPI jangan balas. Biar je. Buat pekak. Fake smile? Senyum nie phn dia macam trick otak kita that we feel happy. But don't fake it. Cari sebab nak senyum. Feel insecure? Diam. Rasa tak yakin diam je, jangan tunjuk. Fake the confident. Fake it till you believe that it is real. Redah je. Apa nak jadi, jadi lah. Keep everything bottle up just to yourself isnt good. Write it somewhere. In a book o diary o blog. Anywhere. Create an anonymous social accounts. Pour your heart out. Create another you but not you. And you can hmu. Pretend everything is okay seriously wrong babe. Stop pretending. You can choose to react. Orang kalau tetiba maki kau, kau boleh pilih between kau nak maki n marah balik o abaikan. Pilih yang mana buat kau puas. As for me aku selalu abaikan sebab tak payah nak pening pening fikir. Either way kau menang n hati kau tenang.